Not Ok

The mirror’s cracked, the lights are low I’m putting on a private show Of all the things I shouldn’t feel Of every wound that won’t quite heal You say I’m fine, you say I’m strong But you’ve been reading me all wrong I’m building castles in the sand While drowning right where I should stand

Don’t fix the mess, don’t try to save The ghost that’s dancing on my grave I’m tired of the how are you’s I’m tired of the same old news

I’m not ok, and that’s alright I’m staying in the dark tonight No plastic smiles, no hollow grace Just let the rain fall on my face I’m breaking down, I’m falling through I’m doing what I have to do I’m not ok And I don’t want to be!